I don't know if i ever fully explained it but here's the reader's digest version. I got kicked out of colorado state university January 8th 2011. January 13th I packed up my things said goodbye to my boyfriend and colorado. I didn't get the chance to say goodbye to a single one of my friends. I swore I would go back there. It feels like home and it's where i belong.
These past months, although they've been fun, they've been painful. I got a job and signed a year long lease in fort collins colorado where my school is. I am beyond excited to go back in 7 days. It's a tiny bit bittersweet because in order to afford school i've decided to become a colorado resident which i think requires that i not leave the state for a whole year. Which will be by far the longest i will have every been away from friends, family, and maryland.
There's more. I met someone... we met at a party of course, almost two weeks ago. We spend every other day together because he works full time as do I and we live 45 minutes from each other. We're serious and have been since we met, which we know is crazy. His name is sean. There is nothing wrong with him. He is gorgeous, fun, sweet, nice. He is the perfect guy. He is confident but not cocky and honest and truthful about us. He appreciates me for who I am and visa versa. We're both wild and have been through the same thing this past year.
What we have is unlike any relationship i have ever had with any other person. It's nauseating and better than any romance movie I've seen (save the notebook obvi). Here's what it's like... we sit around in parks and talk. We party at night, we go to shows. We hang out with each others friends. At night and in the mornings we lay there for hours talking and just looking (get ready to barf) into each others eyes b/c we both have capturing blue eyes and can't get over how pretty the other's are. He tells me what no one has told me before -he is 'glad my parents are over protective, they should be, because they have such an amazing daughter they need to protect from anything and anyone' we tell each other your perfect. We tell each other things that I and he have never shared with anyone else. He tells me I'm amazing and not to ever change on a daily basis. We recognize the amount of kindness and compassion the other is capable of and because of that we show it in how we treat each other. The sad part is that two weeks ago we were strangers and in 7 days we will be again.
I'm not some silly fairy tale girl who hasn't seen many relationships and learned that the mushy stuff is bullshit. I have experienced the ups, downs, and painful lessons. but this is unlike anything i've ever had with someone, being so physically, mentally, and emotionally intune with another. We both acknowledge that even though we don't get to be together much longer, we are glad we met because this relationship (though short) has opened our eyes and will allow us to let more happiness into our futures. I bet i wont even remember him in ten years. What's two weeks? nothing
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